Here's the thing about being single: how do you know when it is time to "get back out there"?
Right after my breakup, i was so incredibly distraught that i was able to ignore how lonely i was because all i could think about was the sadness. Now that the real hard pain has subsided, i feel like maybe i shouldn't be acting like a religious housewife, because i'm actually 22 and used to be quite the girl about town.
I had a revelation today that when i'm single, i'm a lot of fun. When i'm in a relationship, im miserable (i feel miserable, i act like a nag, and im sure my friends aren't too pleased with me).

several friends have suggested setting me up recently, and it just sounds exhausting. i know that it would take an hour to scrape that fake smile off my face once i got home from whatever date i was fixed up on.

And in the words of miranda to carrie in the first episode of season 3, sometimes you are just too afraid of getting hurt again to jump into something new, even if it has the possibility to be great.

what i really need is a good kick in the ass, because this "time heals all wounds" thing is getting a bit monotonous. it's been three years and i don't feel any different.

"When i wake up in the morning, i feel just like any other insecure 24-year-old girl. Then i say 'Bitch, you're lady gaga, you get up and walk the walk today.' " - Lady Gaga