kylie minogue is a goddess.

LA ROUX 'BULLETPROOF' from soyo on Vimeo.

La Roux is hella catchy.


i'm not doing too well today. i think that sometimes we try really hard to be "strong", so we force ourselves to go out and be social and pretend to be happy. however, it is a fact that it is difficult to just decide one day that you are sick of being sad and suddenly you are fine. if that was at all possible, i would be super duper happy all the time because i really WANT to feel good. I WANT to be ok. i saw a friend of mine the other day and god i felt like every single smile i conjured was so... forced. it has nothing to do with her, because i genuinely had a good time hanging out. it's just that i'm still upset and mourning the loss.
X and i are still chatting, tho it is sparse and not as frequent. Maybe he is genuinely fine now. i'm still trying to be ok. if only it was that simple.