I haven't talked about new guy because things for the most part have been really good. We got into a big fight last weekend, and i tried to just leave. He told me if i was upset we should talk about it. pretty adult, huh?

In fact, i keep waiting for him to do something really crappy. I expect for something bad to happen. It's hard dating someone new when your last boyfriend made it impossible for you to trust anyone.

Ya know what we fought about? he's still friends with his ex-girlfriend who he broke up with 2 years ago. i've known this for a long time now, but after a few cocktails and i saw that she had texted him, i got really really pissed off.

it's pretty hypocritical of me of course. a few weeks ago, for some reason i was feeling really nostalgic for X. Not that i wanted to BE with him... I just felt really sad that we were no longer part of each other's lives. This is def for the best because we made each other miserable for a long time. No matter how much i like new guy, it's easy to feel sad for someone who used to be your best friend.

I guess X still feels the same way because 5 minutes ago, as i am getting ready to go out to dinner with new guy, X texted me: i'm sorry.