i am a "what are we" whore, and it took me last night to realize this. after i went out for drinks with PG post-work, i went home and couldn't get the friend vibe we had out of my head, so i unfortunately texted him something dumb: Are we just friends?

This poor guy was freaked out. He thought i wanted him to tell me i was his boyfriend or something of that nature. Deep down, i kinda wanted him to say: Yes, we are just friends.

He's nice, he's sweet, he's cute, blablabla... but i don't really feel anything the way i have in the past with other people (like X).

the same thing happened with a brief fling when i was at school. i was hooking up with a cute/nice/sweet guy, and out of the blue, I "What are we"'d him. It was almost like i wanted him to say it was only casual so i could get out of it. Instead, he said he liked me, and wanted to keep seeing me (read: last night's outcome). A few days later, i told him it wasn't gonna work out. i felt like an asshole. I even continued to call him a few times at late hours to see if he wanted to "watch a movie". i'm such a jerk.

So now that i have had what we call "the break-through moment", i have to play out my next steps carefully. I need to put PG into perspective. As one good friend said: Why not keep seeing him? if he's a good guy, and you enjoy his presence, it's not like you're gonna get married.

i think part of the problem is that we're not doing anything. how can you feel sparks for someone who you kiss occasionally? this is bullshit.