I must say, every time i am tempted to send an email/text/call X, I have instead decided to write out my feelings here, and it is a glorious system.
I get to say all the things i want to say without actually saying them.

I just watched one of my favorite movies ever, and decided i needed to address it here: kissing jessica stein.
I can relate to this. Sometimes, there is a need for something new after yet another dating disappointment. I have seen this movie many times, but I still love it, and its message. Maybe I don't need a girl, but perhaps there is something else out there that I am not aware of, or have not thought of that would make me happy.

The only problem is figuring out exactly what that is.

With that said (because it makes me sound all strong and forward, which is a lie), I saw X over the holiday. It felt amazing. It was just like old times. We were laughing. I was insanely happy. Now i'm back home, and I feel confused. I feel like I should be angry, but I'm not sure that I am. Instead, I'm grasping for the feelings that are out there, in front of my face, and I still can't figure out what they are.

I want that feeling back, no matter how bad it is.