get prepared for a long post regarding food, work and dating. yup.

(----->here, look, i took a picture of food)

I have been crazy busy with the new job, which is good, but too busy to even have a day off, so not good.
Waiting to find a balance.

Anyway, in news according to me: i poached my first egg today. I woke up really jonzing for a poached egg and felt uncertain about how it would turn out. frankly i just don't have the patience to start over if i mess up. i aint got no day!
As it turns out, the scene in julie and julia where they can't figure out poached eggs isn't as realistic as i expected. not to brag amy adams, but i got it on my first try.
it was heavenly, as all poached eggs are. They aren't greasy, they're silky, soft and perfect on buttered toast. i don't think i'll be able to go back.
in my triumphant mood, i thought i would get all food-bloggery and document my experience with shameless photos. until i realized that i don;t have a digital camera, and taking photos of eggs with film is beyond lame and narcissistic. I Love photography. i love food. i love people who blog about food so i can read their posts and get inspired to go cook things that i didn't think were possible (see above). I just don't think i have it in me to care. above i posted a picture of my mother making meatballs. look how italian we are.

in other news, i went on a date. remember the cute guy i met at grand central several months ago when i was in the depths of my breakup despair? well, on a night out with the co-workers, i for some reason told them about GC after a few beers, and they encouraged me to send him a message. i did, because i do stupid stuff like that all the time.
lo and behold he wanted to go get a movie. so i thought what the hell, i love movies, it will be in a public place and people will be around if he tries any funny business.
turns out GC is a really nice and normal guy. We both share a love of zach galifinakis (although what guy doesnt), a will to eat locally after watching food inc, and he ordered my fav. beer before i even opened my mouth. ahh, what sweet first date magic.
In all seriousness, i have seen dates in movies where you meet up and grab a beer before the movie and then share popcorn in the theatre, and then go out for coffee after and then walk around talking. i wasn't really aware that those dates are real. well, thats exactly what happened, and frankly, i walked away smiling.
Now goes into the dreaded "should i call?" phase. i guess im gonna try and keep it cool. does anyone do the three days rule anymore?

More to come i guess.
Happy thanksgiving y'all.

i think it sucks that when your college boyfriend breaks up with you, all you get is a broken heart and old re-runs of 30 rock, while he gets to hang out with all your old friends at your old bar on a friday night.

Last night blew.

as it turns out, there aren't that many cute guys who work at REI. Yes, I went with a co-worker to REI to pick up mountain men. Except they were either hella old or female.

Maybe I am extremely biased but I can't help but wonder why there are so many awesome single girls, and so many douchey single guys? Better yet, I hung out with one of my oldest friends last night and she showed me a facebook message she received from a guy she dated 6 years ago. He said he thought of her often and wanted to reach out to her. She thought it was just... weird. At least i'm not the only one who tends to hear from boyfriends past.

My whole life I have been infected with 'when it rains it pours' syndrome.
This usually has been a shitty fact of life that I try to deal with.

In May, I got dumped in a pretty horrific fashion, graduated from college, moved back in with my parents (who live in the middle of the woods far from anyone i know), have taken up some stressful part time jobs, and went to the hospital (which later resulted in a multitude of tests, medication that makes me sick, and having to pay for health insurance). I'm leaving out the little things that really do add up, trust me i'm an expert.

Well, when you have this syndrome, the one up-side is that usually things will turn around for you one day. Maybe one day it is just really nice outside and you don't feel so miserable. Maybe a guy you have a crush on tells you that you have the nicest ass he's ever seen. maybe you discover a new hobby that makes you really really happy. Then you have a fun halloween weekend with your best friends, and after an afternoon where everything you cooked (lentils and squash with goat cheese and pumpkin bread pudding, thank you smittenkitchen) turns out just perfect you get an email saying that you got that real job you interviewed for. The job where you get to do something productive in society and feel worth-while.

Maybe i'm pre-disposed, but it seems that i experience high highs and low lows. I'm just pretty dam happy that after what feels like forever, i'm starting to reach the good parts again.